A day a major decision is made...

Today I made a major decision in my life I think I ever made... I throw away almost all of my comic books, deactivated Facebook, and going to change my mobile number soon. The most major decision I ever made is... I deleted it. Within this week, none of it will be remain. All need to be gone. I know is extremely hurt and pain for my heart but decision had been made. With this, hope that a new path will open for me, a path that I dream for, a no worries path....

My wrist is still experiencing pain from the fall down yesterday and as expected, my leg got bruises... After all, I guessed is not worth it for me to be that good of a guy...

My heart ache and sorrow be by my side. The uncomfortable feelings are indescribable... But I will bear with this feelings and I will.

This blog will be my last place of putting in my experiences and memories, I will not share it out verbally anymore. Will keep on practicing "Keep it, Seal it and Shut it"...

The song that touch my heart deeply...

Feel so sad...

I'm feeling so damn sad here... not because of my relationship problem but is because I've been left alone by my soulmate... she said that she will be my soulmate and always be... yet now she left me... she ignore me... Losing someone I love is really painful... now even losing my soulmate... I dunno how to describe my feeling here... will I end up in hospital tonight? I wonder...

Can i?

Today morning i fetch my dad to breakfast and then head to hospital. I tot that it was a full check up but who knows it was only to take my dad blood for test so that they can generate out a report for next week appointment with the doc. After that, i went back home and FB awhile. Then head out with certain someone. Hang out with her, i feel good and happy ^^ Accompany her bought a dress today, she said will be wear on her birthday. I'm sure she will be the spotlight that that even though she is not the birthday girl. Cause that dress and her, really match, it make her look beautiful. I wish that, I can have such time and moment with my future GF too...

On the other hand, within my heart, there are words that I wish to speak out but I know is not the right time to tell. Someone will feel hurt if I do. I wish that I can be like that man... withstand and withhold all the emotion and feeling deep within himself Bear all the suffer and pain alone inside his heart. I really wish I can be like him. Though I wish for happiness but yet... time is not right. Is as my friend Xiao Hui said, in a relationship, "timing" is really important. "Timing" play a big role... I can only wish for that certain someone to reach her happiness, truly and sincerely...

Reminiscence

Yesterday, i did a stupid thing where i wish for luck, I just hope that miracle would happened but as we all know, it doesn't happen so occasionally... if not, it would not be call a miracle... Well, one should bear the consequences for his/her own action, so do I. I will go on...

Yesterday, I woke up quiet late as I drank some red wine before sleep. I've not been drinking for quiet awhile. The taste of this season red wine is simply the best >.<
And thus, i woke up late =p Then i continue to watch korean drama named "You're beautiful". It's about a girl pretending to be her twin brother to participate in a live band. She been found out easily but didn't being kick out ^^. The love story start from there... Watch it yourselves ya ^^ I watch 10 episodes in a row on my bed. Kinda resting good, just lack of sleep ^^ Then I received a call and it made me remember that i wanted to watch a Thai movie named "Best of Time". I invited Wayne to join in but he seem unable to go out at night recently >.< Thus I ended up going alone like usual. Before I depart, I received another call and we chat for roughly 20 minutes. When we hang up, I realized time really did flies... It's already 7:05pm and the movie time is 7:30pm. OMG!!! That time sure is a hell of JAM in Bukit Bintang area so i decided to just run there as my previous record was 30 minutes to reach Pavilion at my house. And WOW, i break my own record!! ^^ I reach the cinema at 7:25pm. I ran to there in the rain, I realized I over did it when I stop to wait for the traffic to turn green... I almost collapse on the road. Thanks to the lamp post there, I actually fall on it... I can't imagine what will happen if I fall on the road and then car come "BANG"... End of story >.<.
Well, after realizing that, I slowdown my pace a little and I still reach there at 7:25pm. Though I almost die, but the movie really worth it!! I just scare that I might miss the chance to watch it as International movie wont't last long. The movie, was GREAT!!!
By the time I get home, the rain stopped. Like usual, I walked back and take a bath since I was all WET >.< but dry already in the cinema, LOL. Then FB for awhile and video call with someone. We chat happily ^^ Too bad i can't stay for long as now i need to take bath and fetch my Dad to hospital for checkup. So without wasting time anymore, until next time, CYAZ

Will write a more private blog from now

As stated above, i will now write a more private blog. this will be a memory...

I've pass the point of no return...

I've pass the point of no return today... I wanted to describe it throughly but yet i don't think I can... There are alot of things i would like to tell out, to be even shout out but i know... I can't. It can only be bury deep inside my heart... or maybe even my soul... I used to have a soulmate which I can tell and share with... But I vetray her... which add in another case in my regret book. I will wait and see, let time pass and see what I can do...