The sad things...

Realize one thing today... Which made me feel sad... Well is actually I know just that I don't want to accept. Certain places that I can't go with her. She is still willing to go with him. Is their memory. Is the places of their memory. I van never break the ice if continue like this... She said she won't go to those places with me but yet she is willing to go with him. God please help me. ...

Today... Heartbroken day

Today is the day Ching Yee choose to left me... She broke up with me. And today will also be the day that the devil is rise. I Malcolm Hah Cheng Khean vow to be the devil from today onwards. I will be cruel to others. Be selfish to myself. And at the same time, I vow and swear that I Malcolm Hah Cheng Khean will eat neither beef nor fish from this moment onwards as to remember the pain I received today.

Tong Hua (童话) Cover - English/Chinese + Violin/Trumpet by Jason Chen & J...

ending

this will be the end ^^ no need to follow anymore, i will continue to write on my personal blog. things change... and eventually , some ppl will not appreciate anymore... and im those that not being appreciate anymore. So the existence of this blog is no longer worth. cyaz

Another tiring day

Well, last sat went for sky trek and this sat i went for Broga (again >.<) with my colleagues, manager and his childs ^^. After that we went to "Sek La Tok Temple" and took some pics ^^. Coming back home, then rest for awhile and went out for Hachiko with my daughter Amelinda ^^. He fetched me ^^, long time no ppl fetch d >.< But ended up i left my house key in her car >.< Reach home mom slept d, OMG!!. Have to call my uncle come down open the door for me. Luckily, i hide the keys at some place so even without bringing my keys back home, I still manage to sleep on my bed ^^.

The sad thing is ... I miss her badly and i felt extremely cold and lonely...

Is still the same

Though the said and promise day is already past but still, it will never be fulfill... Plus the attempt I try to make seem unsuccessful too...

Tiring

Went for sky trek on sat noon (that damn vincent didn't manage to reserved us the morning session) make it so damn hot >.< Sweaty all the time. The difficulty we went for was extreme level. Is was the 1st time i been there and they told me it was extreme level -_-" but well, it end up ok for me. Just the toughest part will be the ladder part. The balancing part, ^^, can't even shake me a bit. I'm very proud of myself as I'm very good at balancing myself ^^. It's a very exciting activity after all.

But well, when it comes back to me alone (the time i'm alone), it just made me think of her. I miss her truly... I still love her a lot... God, pls help me... If you as a god couldn't help me, just arrange satan/demon/devil to come finish me off sooner. I don' wanna live with this feeling... I may end up become a schizophrenia patient if this continue and if it come true, I dun want to be a burden to my family member. Just finish me off and let me R.I.P. will ya? Pls god. Thx in advance...