ending

this will be the end ^^ no need to follow anymore, i will continue to write on my personal blog. things change... and eventually , some ppl will not appreciate anymore... and im those that not being appreciate anymore. So the existence of this blog is no longer worth. cyaz

Another tiring day

Well, last sat went for sky trek and this sat i went for Broga (again >.<) with my colleagues, manager and his childs ^^. After that we went to "Sek La Tok Temple" and took some pics ^^. Coming back home, then rest for awhile and went out for Hachiko with my daughter Amelinda ^^. He fetched me ^^, long time no ppl fetch d >.< But ended up i left my house key in her car >.< Reach home mom slept d, OMG!!. Have to call my uncle come down open the door for me. Luckily, i hide the keys at some place so even without bringing my keys back home, I still manage to sleep on my bed ^^.

The sad thing is ... I miss her badly and i felt extremely cold and lonely...

Is still the same

Though the said and promise day is already past but still, it will never be fulfill... Plus the attempt I try to make seem unsuccessful too...

Tiring

Went for sky trek on sat noon (that damn vincent didn't manage to reserved us the morning session) make it so damn hot >.< Sweaty all the time. The difficulty we went for was extreme level. Is was the 1st time i been there and they told me it was extreme level -_-" but well, it end up ok for me. Just the toughest part will be the ladder part. The balancing part, ^^, can't even shake me a bit. I'm very proud of myself as I'm very good at balancing myself ^^. It's a very exciting activity after all.

But well, when it comes back to me alone (the time i'm alone), it just made me think of her. I miss her truly... I still love her a lot... God, pls help me... If you as a god couldn't help me, just arrange satan/demon/devil to come finish me off sooner. I don' wanna live with this feeling... I may end up become a schizophrenia patient if this continue and if it come true, I dun want to be a burden to my family member. Just finish me off and let me R.I.P. will ya? Pls god. Thx in advance...

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Is really hard to contain my feeling now when each day pass... i wonder when will i go insane...maybe become crazy or schizo also is good... no need to think anymore and be happy with everything... let me be crazy then...hope the day i explode come soon

Hide it...

No matter what, hide ur feeling malcx, no matter how u feel, how u restraint urself, or even to change ur style, just hide it no matter what. U have to as there ain't a thing u can do anymore... Accept the facts... Bear with it... and release it when no ones know

Dun like how i feel...

Recently, the feeling of KSS reemerge... lucky that i still able to ctrl... Hiding it is not a good way after all, it might explode and something bad might happen then... need to find a solution fast... Don't know till when my body can last...

KSS

Keep it in Malcx... some pictures of her, yes will reminded u of her but u are a past, face the present malcx, dun be sad...

Sh*t, I really missing her..

I admit that I miss her... but there ain't a thing I can do... All I can do is wishing for her happiness and appreciate whatever things that happened to me now. How? By saying thx and not just saying it but I mean it with my heart when I thx ppl. Appreciating others, is all I can do now to improve... And as my previous post said(dunno how long ago), There ain't a second chance in this world. Reality is cruel, FACE IT MALCX!!!

ermmm...

will i be able to? i wonder...