Today i have told her about my feelings, views, and all about myself to her. I hope she can understand me better this way and have a happier life without thinking me as her burden. I hope and wish that she will give in some thought on what I had said to her. Here is a phrase that i found in other blog. I find it very true.

"Past is something that cant be change and we have to accept it to move on. Our love story before may not be good but we have to accept it and move on.
Future is something unpredictable as who knows what will happen the seconds after. Thinking too far into the future of our love will only make ourself miserable. Afraid that choosing the wrong partner to love, afraid of being hurt in the future. All this will only hinder the growth of love. Who knows what will happen in the future.
Present is what we should focus on. Love is something that not everyone have the chances to stumble upon on. Some may find it easily and some may not. So appreciate those around you now. If u think there is a chance for you to fall in love, why not? If you are given the chance to love, accept it. Make a difference in your life today, as you will never know what the outcomes are. It may end up positively or vice versa. Who knows. What matters the most is the present, the feelings of love that we have for each other now.
Don't deny yourself of love, for you'll bring suffering to yourself. You might even regret it, for not taking the "road not taken". You might grunt at yourself, 10 years later, for not choosing the other option. Learn to accept. Learn to love. "

As for me right now, even though i know it's gonna be hard for her to come back to me but my choice is to continue to love her. Who knows what may lies in our future. I won't deny myself of love. I know i did very wrong in my past. I were wrong, very wrong. I sincerely apologize. I'm willing to do anything to repent. I promise that same incidents won't happen again. Please forgive me ting. I LOVE YOU FOREVER TING. When i say "I Love You", i mean it so that we can walk into the future unafraid together, I mean that you're the best thing that happened to me and i know no matter what, I'll keep my promise of love to you ting. I love you.