Life of Leo's continue...

Yesterday went to Aloha to help my friend while have some fun myself. Instead, witness how horrible is it a woman can be when she drunk + being accused of things she didn't admit of. It open my eyes. The purpose i went there at 1st is to calm down my feeling by drinking alcohol due to me emotional sadness after heard of certain things... Even now i also feel a bit sad... But i know i should be happy as long as she is happy. So i will try my best to be happy as i know she happy. I really dunno whether i can be happy or not, could i really be? should I? I really don't know... What i know was that I still have heart for her... To make myself happy, or better say, to pretend to be happy is easy but can i really do it? This pretend happy thing... I guess I'll not achieve true happiness anymore... Loving someone too deep sure is painful... I will try my best to be happy even i have to pretend it my whole life. It still hurts when i thinking back of the things going to happen... emotional sadness can't be avoid yet i have to be happy at the same time cause she happy... Will i be able to do it? Am i strong enough to? Malcolm... be strong...