Wednesday, May 6, 2009

I'll never be happy

As the sinner, Malcx... I will never be happy... Met my new beginning of life with a girl that i loved... When we were almost together... found out that she actually has a boyfriend... My principle is that i won't be a 3rd party in a relationship... Even though i know i love her... I told her to decide on her own who she want to be with, I'll wait for her no matter is a day, a week, a month or even a year... That was yesterday night... And after that i knew she was hurt... Caused i told her to find me when she ready... Today, she told me she break up with her bf... but i'm just a friend of her... This is what made me sad... extreme sad... I guessed as a sinner... I won't find any happiness...

Thus, i developing a new bad hobby... Now i smoke... will probably indulge myself into other bad things that those who knew me didn't imagine of... All was to punish myself, a sinner...

A word of advice... Dun get too close with me... Just afraid to dag u along when something bad happen... Stay away or u may get hurt.

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