Well, to be frank with those read my blog, this is the 3rd or 4th times i drived my car. Still very nervous and "sei for" for sometimes. But from time to time, i gradually feeling better. Manage to drive it safely at the least though my friend scold me drive too fast especially Patrick, he said if i drive fast like this, he might have heart attack ><><.
I drove to somewhere near the "maktab tentera diraja" then go to sg long with Patrick companion at 1st. Then he drove other car while on the way back. Left me drove alone. But everything went well. He also compliment me good at following others car. Felt happy caused got compliment but still in the end, very nervous. Need to drive more before i dare to fetch my girl (if i have one -_-)
Then we ended up ate steamboat at ketam and lastly we went "back to home" cafe (Fun OK Cafe). Which can be translate at go back home cafe. Fetch Eric back to ketam there for his car then i drove back home and parked it. HOME SAFELY ^^
To my surprise, my dad stay awake until i reached home only he went to sleep. Some more, there were some of his apprentice accompanied him waited for me to reach. I felt guilty to go home late. That time was 1pm...
As to my private social life. I've been name as "playboy"... i felt sad and hate myself. I unconsciously changed into a "playboy" just to make myself being happy whereby i disturb all the girls that i met. After being told that, i stop my behavior now and go back to my sad self... Faking myself to be happy will bring negative images to self. Maybe my ways were wrong but i really hate to be called "playboy" caused i didn't want to end up like my cousins, dad, uncle and grandpa... My bloodline all this while were playing around with gals... I really didn't want to end up like them.
I really didn't want to break the promise i made with her even though that promised were made when i still being with her, as her bf, that i will love her forever. Even after she found a new bf and moved on. I still want to keep this promise... I know i'm stupid all this while...
I'm a person that hunger for companion and love. Being alone made me sick and sad. I'm planning to break the promise as she clearly chosen him over me... didn't really care about me as her friend anymore. The feeling of hurt and sadness were very extreme... But i know i've to move on somehow... Accepting the facts and moving on now as I believed there is someone that managed to move my heart...
Thats all for now folks.
Good night and have a sweet dreams ya ^^
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