Is complicately sad

Today... or should i say recently... I'm not quite happy... I were feeling sad from time to time... I feel lost at some time... I just don't feel good. Missing her... And today, by what she post on FB... "Every meeting is a blessing, if it isn't then it is a lesson"... It clearly stated that I'm a lesson in her life... not even a blessing... Even though for me... she is a blessing... I feel so sad and feel very bad about it... Even though I can hide it well.... I just feel bad...

The sad things...

Realize one thing today... Which made me feel sad... Well is actually I know just that I don't want to accept. Certain places that I can't go with her. She is still willing to go with him. Is their memory. Is the places of their memory. I van never break the ice if continue like this... She said she won't go to those places with me but yet she is willing to go with him. God please help me. ...

Today... Heartbroken day

Today is the day Ching Yee choose to left me... She broke up with me. And today will also be the day that the devil is rise. I Malcolm Hah Cheng Khean vow to be the devil from today onwards. I will be cruel to others. Be selfish to myself. And at the same time, I vow and swear that I Malcolm Hah Cheng Khean will remember the pain I received today.

Tong Hua (童话) Cover - English/Chinese + Violin/Trumpet by Jason Chen & J...

ending

this will be the end ^^ no need to follow anymore, i will continue to write on my personal blog. things change... and eventually , some ppl will not appreciate anymore... and im those that not being appreciate anymore. So the existence of this blog is no longer worth. cyaz

Another tiring day

Well, last sat went for sky trek and this sat i went for Broga (again >.<) with my colleagues, manager and his childs ^^. After that we went to "Sek La Tok Temple" and took some pics ^^. Coming back home, then rest for awhile and went out for Hachiko with my daughter Amelinda ^^. He fetched me ^^, long time no ppl fetch d >.< But ended up i left my house key in her car >.< Reach home mom slept d, OMG!!. Have to call my uncle come down open the door for me. Luckily, i hide the keys at some place so even without bringing my keys back home, I still manage to sleep on my bed ^^.

The sad thing is ... I miss her badly and i felt extremely cold and lonely...

Is still the same

Though the said and promise day is already past but still, it will never be fulfill... Plus the attempt I try to make seem unsuccessful too...